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ask-elrond replied to your post: I am devastated. You would rather hook up with Elrond than Glorfindel? Why oh why would you refuse your soul mate in this way? You two were made for each other! Think about it: Elrond is only your boring, MARRIED boss (not to mention the kids), Glorfindel is a legendary warrior and he’s got an intelligent horse, a probably really big sword and very pretty blond hair!

I think Ecthelion would have something to say about you being Glorfindel’s ‘soul mate’. Erestor, you shouldn’t let this upset you, it’s just ridiculous nonsense. As though anyone would choose a lover based on their horse /laughs

My thoughts exactly. *Weak smile*

Alas, I am not saddened because of the words of an anon. Being upset by the opinions of others is foolish for we all think differently and, besides, I have certainly had a lot worse anons! I was merely afraid of how you would react to this.

Precisely, we all think differently; they are entitled to think that I am boring if they want to, or whatever other reasons they gave for thinking that you would be better off with Glorfindel. I realised many years ago that it’s impossible to please everyone, so this fails to concern me.

As I said recently, I’m not easily made jealous. I can see why someone might fall in love with Glorfindel, of course, but I believe you when you say that you love me, so there is no need to fear my reaction.

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ask-elrond replied to your post: *Runs to find you and hugs you tightly*

Oh, father, don’t cry, please… your mother spoke truly, he cannot hurt you or your family now. *Strokes your hair soothingly*

*holds Elrond tighter* Ai, my son… you and Elros both are stronger than I am. I lived in a time when there was no such words for war and death. I cannot endure this new life, for it little resembles the bliss of life in Valinor. Ai, forgive me son…I have been through more than is possible for anyone. Should this nightmare return…ai, let me not say more.

You are so strong, father! That you have endured so much and remain so gentle and selfless - that you are here, alive, without having lost your mind - that makes you stronger than anyone I have ever known! I can only dream of being as strong as you are. It will not return. You are safe here. *Squeezes*

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ask-erestor replied to your post: wow arent you going to think of erestors feelings???

Ah, you shouldn’t worry about my feelings. I will stand by your side no matter what happens, Elrond. You cannot simply shut off your feelings and I understand that.

You are truly remarkable, Erestor. I’ve said it before but I really don’t deserve your compassion.

I can’t stop worrying about your feelings, though. I’m supposed to worry about them, as your lover.

I am only doing what any decent lover would do, meleth. Of course, you are entitled to your feelings - worrying included - but I wish you wouldn’t worry so much. *Smiles* One of these days, Elrond, you’re going to strain something from all of your worrying! Besides, this would have affected me a lot more in the past rather than in this present day because I understand now. I understand because of my own feelings for you. Love isn’t something you can simply throw away like the leftovers of an evening meal. Love anchors you, weighing somewhat of a burden on both your heart and mind. It is as if we are imprisoned - trapped in an endless cycle of both pain and pleasure depending on the circumstance. I understand that you will never truly lose your love for Lady Celebrían and Ereinion, just as I will never truly lose my love for you.

Erestor, I… you described these feelings more eloquently than I could ever hope to. Yes, you are right; you are absolutely right.

I love you so much.

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Ah, you shouldn’t worry about my feelings. I will stand by your side no matter what happens, Elrond. You cannot simply shut off your feelings and I understand that.

You are truly remarkable, Erestor. I’ve said it before but I really don’t deserve your compassion.

I can’t stop worrying about your feelings, though. I’m supposed to worry about them, as your lover.

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None of this is new to him, since we’ve spoken about it multiple times before. Erestor knew about my continued emotional attachment to Gil-galad from the moment he first made his feelings known to me.

I’ve given him ample opportunity, encouragement even, to choose someone else who doesn’t have a complicated history with past lovers. Of course I think of his feelings and I constantly worry that I’m hurting him but he chooses to stay with me.

In this situation anything I say is going to potentially hurt someone I care about deeply, so it’s really impossible for me to win. Therefore, I’m just being as open and honest as I can be.

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ask-gil-galad replied to your post: Elrond, do you suppose that we could discuss these issues that remain between us…? (Though I admit, most of these issues are what I have made up on my own…) Just as proper closure.

Oh, wonderful! I suppose whenever works best for you, I shall be willing to speak with you. *smiles* There is nothing keeping my time at the moment.

Nor mine. I should be glad to speak with you about whatever is on your mind. *Returns smile*

So… what would you say to now, then? I suppose the sooner we put this behind us, the sooner you may return to your life, without me pestering you so much. *laughs*

I’m sorry, I thought I had implied that I meant now would be good, haha. Pestering me? Oh, Gilly, you could never pester me, don’t be ridiculous. I’ve wanted to have a proper conversation with you ever since you joined the tumblr, but I was under the impression that you were angry with me.

Forgive me, I just… I’m sorry, Elrond. *laughs again* I can’t seem to shake these nerves away. Well, as far as being angry with you, I suppose I was. I brought my resentment (rather irrational resentment, now that I look back on it) from a personal matter and expressed it towards nearly everyone else. But as time passes, I am not as angry anymore. 

I’ve always wondered… well, I’ve wondered many things, but… is there still a place in your heart for me? Not only as a friend, but as we once were, all those years ago.

You? Nervous? I’m amazed, truly. I didn’t know I had the power to make you nervous!

I’m glad that you feel less angry now. It hurt so much to see you in that state and to feel as though I was the cause of it. All I want is for your happiness.

I… yes. Yes, there is. I’m not sure if that will make things seem better or worse.

Oh, Elrond… you always made me nervous. Whenever I would come to find you after a long day’s work, I never wished to disturb you. I’d always feared that I’d taken my stress and frustrations out on you too much, so I tried to not speak of them. I never wanted to push you away. But being nervous isn’t always a bad thing either, you know; do you recall when I’d made you dinner, once…? Just once. *laughs* I was so eager, and yet horrified, for your reaction. I had spent so long on it, I didn’t want to make you miserable by eating it.

I was hurt and confused. Hurt that you have moved on from me, and to another. Heartache, I believe it’s referred to. I always wish to see you happy too, though… I assumed that you would wait and follow me to Valinor. It was an idea that I put into my own head, one I took out on you. I hope you may forgive me… I see now that in putting that idea in my head, I had put your happiness second, inevitably.

I am not sure either… It pleases me to know you feel such a way about me, but… I also can’t help but wonder why you had moved on, if this is what you feel…

I never knew that. You hid it so well, if that’s the truth… but you couldn’t have done anything that would have pushed me away. Actually, it was I who had always feared losing you from the very start, but I thought it would be to the arms of another, I never dreamt that it would happen the way it did… you seemed indestructible to me. Yes, I remember. It was thoroughly charming. I would have eaten coal and said it tasted delicious just to please you.

I moved on because I had to. Please try to understand, I wasn’t myself after your death. It was the first time that I had ever been truly alone… there had always been you or Elros to rely upon before.  I wished to fade, so I could be with you again, yet I knew that I was needed still in Middle-earth and must be strong for my people. It was a choice between moving on from you or drowning in my grief. To fall in love again was a great relief. Perhaps I’m an emotionally weak person for giving up on you. You may think that if you like. Sometimes I think it about myself. After all, have I not done the same thing twice? Being alone is… difficult for me to handle.

The Halls seem dreary at best. I can see why you would assume that things had stayed the same and I don’t hold it against you, I’m only sorry that I’ve disappointed you in your expectations.

I would never leave - I mean, have left… - your arms in favor of another’s… Never. I could never fathom doing such a thing. Why would I leave perfection behind? Oh, I never thought my death would come the way it did… I dreamt of sailing with you, being by your side for the rest of my life. I, ahh… I still do. That dream does not leave me alone, for it returns almost every time I fall to a waking dream.

I know you do not like being alone. I know. You… you wanted to fade…? Oh, Elrond, I… It is much too late to ask for forgiveness. I never knew you had nearly faded… I see now why you made what choices you did. I understand, and knowing indeed makes this anger practically fade entirely. Middle-earth is never ready to lose you. No one is. *smiles softly*

No, do not apologize. I know now why you did what you did. I am the one who should be, and is, sorry. My rash and thoughtless behavior lead me to think the worst of all of these situations. It seems that since I no longer have you at my side, I never think things through, wouldn’t you agree? *laughs*

I’m flattered - deeply flattered to know you still think of me that way, but perhaps it would be better for your happiness if you were to try and move past those dreams. I’m not asking you to stop having any feelings for me whatsoever; I know that I will always feel something for you, given that you were my first love and that we were parted prematurely; but the fact remains that we cannot be together in body. I would not be jealous or upset if you took a new lover as I have done. As I said, my primary concern is your happiness and it pains me to think of you as being lonely and frustrated. There is not merely one person we can find happiness with, that is a fallacy. You could offer so much to someone else.

There’s nothing to forgive. Well, Middle-earth must become ready to lose me because now my presence here is no longer necessary I believe that relatively soon it will be time for me to sail. I wonder why you have not yet been released from the Halls? I can see no good reason for it. At least you have your parents and sister with you.

Ha, I was always there to cool your temper I suppose! However, I like your fiery nature, that’s part of what makes you so interesting. *Smiles*

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ask-elrond replied to your post: I hear you plan to travel soon. Please come and go as you wish; I sincerely hope that you will consider Imladris a second home, as you are family now. I also hope that you might one day come to view me as a brother of sorts.

I will miss you too, very much. We have much in common, you and I. Ah, me and your son… how do I put this delicately? I think we have a clash of personality. Though I’d love to be your guest, I wouldn’t want to get in his way.

It appears we do, for which I am glad. I feel like I could simply sit and talk with you until the end of time. Ah, well, as I said, if Thranduil complains I will take away the things he loves and send him to his room, if I must. He may be the king now, but I am still his father and he will listen to me. Any guest of mine will not be getting in his way.

Mmhmm, I have that same feeling. Oh, now that is an amusing picture! Well, perhaps I shall take you up on your offer after all, but only after I’ve spoken with Thranduil about it personally. Really, I see no reason why we cannot get along. I know that he has good reasons for disliking the Noldor and I also know what a struggle it must have been for him to defend his realm against Dol Guldur without a ring of power to aid him. I wish that there was something I might do or say that could build a bridge between us. For one thing, I’ve yet to see Celeborn since they became lovers and as he’s one of my closest friends it isn’t as though I can avoid his company forever.

Alas, Elrond, my son has always been stubborn. Perhaps I should talk with him myself, and find out the root of his dislike for you. Since we are all family now, it feels wrong to have such hostility between you (and it worries me, for I am nervous enough as it is about him meeting Elros…). I am afraid it may be partially my fault, since he has grown up despising the Noldor (and Dwarves, though that appears to be resolving itself thanks to Legolas), for that was my view on them during his early development. However, I have moved past that and I hope he can do the same. Do not worry, Elrond, I am sure he will come to like you once he tries to see past your heritage.

Then you must certainly visit! Celeborn is as good as I am at convincing Thranduil to do things, if not better (which I assume is down to the nature of their relationship. Celeborn can withhold certain things I cannot, after all.)

I don’t blame you for despising the Noldor after what happened in Doriath. You shouldn’t think of it as being your fault; Thranduil is an adult now, capable of forming his own opinions. However, I understand that stubbornness and a certain wariness of outsiders were necessities for a long time and old habits die hard.

This may surprise you but I’ve always admired him, actually. Your entire family has such strength, I can’t imagine how proud you must be of them.

If you could talk to him for me then perhaps that would be best, though I’d also like to talk to him myself. As for him meeting Elros, well, I can understand if he can’t bring himself to befriend me, but my brother is practically impossible to dislike (I may be a little biased but I think we both agree that he is a truly wonderful person).

I don’t think that Thranduil would like me any better if he suspected Celeborn of ‘withholding certain things’ for my sake!

The Noldor cannot be held responsible for the actions of only a few, as someone very wise and dear to me said not too long ago. I have seen past the actions of others, and I only hope my son can do the same.

Oh, really? Well, I am certainly surprised but… you are right, of course. We were born strong, I suppose - and yes, I am incredibly proud of them. My boy has come so far, and he has raised a truly incredibly son of his own.

I shall, then. I cannot have him disliking you, Elrond. He must at least try to see how wonderful you are. Ah, yes, he is truly amazing, and yet… it is Thranduil’s nature to be protective where I am concerned, and though Elros has done nothing in the way of hurting me, I worry that Thranduil will not welcome him into the family like I want him to (and let us not think about what might happen if he DOES hurt me, unintentionally or not. Thranduil has a habit of playing with large swords when he is angry).

Ah, yes, a good point…

Of course, you are strong as well, Oropher. You have endured so much and yet are one of the most kind and good natured people I’ve had the pleasure of knowing. Ah, yes, Legolas is an exceptional Elf. I had once hoped for a match between him and one of my sons to work out, but alas…

I can understand protectiveness over one’s parents, of course. I’d probably feel the same way if say, Maglor took a new lover. Due to the circumstances of you raising him alone, the two of you clearly developed a very close bond and he may feel that Elros is a potential threat to that. He will come around, I’m certain, once he sees how happy you are.

If Elros ever hurt you it wouldn’t only be Thranduil he’d have to worry about. I’d certainly be having some very stern words with him myself. He would be a fool if he were to ever spurn your love.